Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.
Psalm 68:19
Haha, I know this is a weird song for me to start with, but bear with me, ok?
Today is the 7th, and it's a hard day for me for @ least two reasons.
Reason #1: My grandpa died in my house 7 months ago today. I've been drawn to his kinda music lately, partly because I just saw "Coal Miner's Daughter" with Sissy Spacek, and I've wanted to hear some real Loretta Lynn. So today, as I was scanning his photos for the family, I indulged in a little Loretta,
a little Patsy, (if you lived in my house for the past year, you knew how OFTEN we heard this song!!)
a little of the Judds,
and I realized that I kinda like his kinda music. Grandpa would be proud.
Reason #2: I had a boyfriend 2 months ago today; now I don't; enough said.(Don't worry,I won't post a song for this reason that I'm blue.....even though one by the Judds does come to mind.)
Death, life. It's all hard sometimes. Haha, and the sun is even shining and it's still a blue day for me.
Hope. I had some yesterday, and because I had it yesterday, I have no doubt but that it will return. God always comes thru.
Summon Your power, O God; show us Your Strength, O God, as you have done before.
Psalm 68:28
I have thought so much that I want a new life. But this life is mine. And it is mostly good: I have my family, a job that looks promising, my friends,and most importantly, I have my God. I also have my pride, and my dignity. Life may have not turned out the way I wanted it.....yet. It's still not over. Yes, my grandpa is gone, and the era of being a caregiver's daughter (Loretta is still in my head, can you tell?) is over. Yes, I no longer have a boyfriend, and the dreams I had are put on hold in a whole new way, but my dreams still exist, just not with him. Today is rough, but tomorrow will be easier, and next month will be another month past all my grief. Sorrow is a part of life. It expands the heart to make room for joy. I will be one heck of a joyful person someday.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 68:19
Haha, I know this is a weird song for me to start with, but bear with me, ok?
Today is the 7th, and it's a hard day for me for @ least two reasons.
Reason #1: My grandpa died in my house 7 months ago today. I've been drawn to his kinda music lately, partly because I just saw "Coal Miner's Daughter" with Sissy Spacek, and I've wanted to hear some real Loretta Lynn. So today, as I was scanning his photos for the family, I indulged in a little Loretta,
a little Patsy, (if you lived in my house for the past year, you knew how OFTEN we heard this song!!)
a little of the Judds,
and I realized that I kinda like his kinda music. Grandpa would be proud.
Reason #2: I had a boyfriend 2 months ago today; now I don't; enough said.(Don't worry,I won't post a song for this reason that I'm blue.....even though one by the Judds does come to mind.)
Death, life. It's all hard sometimes. Haha, and the sun is even shining and it's still a blue day for me.
Hope. I had some yesterday, and because I had it yesterday, I have no doubt but that it will return. God always comes thru.
Summon Your power, O God; show us Your Strength, O God, as you have done before.
Psalm 68:28
I have thought so much that I want a new life. But this life is mine. And it is mostly good: I have my family, a job that looks promising, my friends,and most importantly, I have my God. I also have my pride, and my dignity. Life may have not turned out the way I wanted it.....yet. It's still not over. Yes, my grandpa is gone, and the era of being a caregiver's daughter (Loretta is still in my head, can you tell?) is over. Yes, I no longer have a boyfriend, and the dreams I had are put on hold in a whole new way, but my dreams still exist, just not with him. Today is rough, but tomorrow will be easier, and next month will be another month past all my grief. Sorrow is a part of life. It expands the heart to make room for joy. I will be one heck of a joyful person someday.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
I know this to be true. I don't know what's going on in your life if you're reading this right now. Maybe you're in a season of grief, too. I only listed 2 reasons it's my season right now, believe me I could list more. I'm sure you could, too. The Lord knows what you're going thru and I want you to know, because He wants you and me both to know: He loves you, Dear Heart. He is on your side. He wants you to turn to Him in your grief and pain. He wants to walk with you and talk with you, cry with you even. Let's let Him in, Love. He might not take the pain away quite yet, but He makes it bearable. This time in our lives might be rough, but someday when we look back, they will be the sweetest we've ever had if we let Him in and be the Savior He gave up Heaven to be.
Those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
Psalm 34: 10
LORD, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, O LORD. Renew them in my day, in my time make them known.
Habakkuk 2:2 (emphasis and personalization are mine)
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