There’s a new phenomenon taking place in my heart and I know that it’s God’s work inside me because I would never have these thoughts or inclinations on my own. The truth is, I’m tired of being single, of wishin’ and hopin’ for the right guy to come along. When I’m not watching other people getting hooked up and married and having babies, I’m watching women around me watch those people and then I transfer their depression to my own mind. When I step back and evaluate myself, I see that I’m not ready to get married and have a family of my own yet. The stark reality is equivalent to a cold shower as I realize that a relationship means being responsible to and for another human being (and male, at that) besides myself. Then come the dimension of babies, who turn into toddlers, who turn into children, who turn into teenagers, who turn into, hopefully, responsible adults.
Whew!! I think I aged 20 years while writing the last two sentences, talk about your life flashing before your very eyes!! But if I’m not ready to be married yet and I’m tired of being single, what’s life in between those two thoughts?
Well, there’s the idea of being in love with someone and then the whole future flashing before my eyes won’t be scary or overwhelming, it will just simply be right. But I’m not in love, nor is anyone beating down my door showering me with flowers and love poetry (and if there was, it’d probably be someone I didn’t even like). So there has to be something else, something that takes the place of pity parties with girlfriends and the “You’re so much prettier than she is” sessions. Girlfriends are good for a lot of things, but pity parties are over rated. We tend to drag each other down when we’re trying to build the other up with flattery and sympathy. It takes us a year (or more) to get over “the one that got away”, when in reality, if we just wiped the snot off our noses and freshened our makeup, we’d see there’s a life out there to be lived.
Well, clean that mascara off your cheek, dear heart, because I have been given a gift by the Most High God that is the answer to, “what about life in between?” It doesn’t take a man, or any other human being besides you to receive this gift. I know this because I’m in process of receiving this gift myself at this very moment. It’s too big to keep to myself, I must share it. I don’t even know if I’ve fully grasped its magnitude because I keep falling on my face in what I call “Freak Out Moments”. But let’s be good girlfriends to each other and become each other’s strength as we individually hold our hands out to the Giver of all good gifts and let Him fill us to over flowing capacity with His gifts. I promise you, He won’t disappoint, He will come through for you and me, and He will show you things you’ve never dreamed of. Open your heart, love, and let Him in.
Remember in Mary Poppins how they all jumped into the painting? Well, I don’t know about you, but I’m ready to jump from this dreary life called “Singleness” and into a life that’s filled with wonder and adventure. So, what do you say? Are you ready to blow your nose one last time and wash your face? Put some new makeup on, you never know when you’re going to pass by a mirror, you don’t want to see traces of your old pity parties. You want to see a woman who’s on her way to meet Someone. You want to see a woman who’s ready for anything, you want to see a woman who’s ready to fall in love along the way. I don’t know if your end of the journey includes a man or not, but I do know Someone who thinks you’re desirable and who wants you just the way you are. And we’re on our way to meet Him. Are you ready now? One, two, three…….now, beloved, jump!!!
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